Thursday, June 11, 2009

"You've Been Cured!"

Those are the words I heard from my doctor this morning at my 36 week prenatal appointment. No, I haven't been cured of the heartburn, nausea, large belly, and annoying contractions, but I'm not hoping for relief from those symptoms for a few more weeks. What I have been cured from are all the inconsistencies, worries, and complications of this pregnancy. Yep, somehow over these last two months everything abnormal about this pregnancy has worked itself out, resulting in a baby that is growing right on target and amniotic fluid levels within the normal range.

I feel so grateful knowing I can finally sit back and relax for these last few weeks. I am planning on this birth being night and day difference from when Antalya was born. While I am in labor I can focus on nothing but the anticipation of holding my little girl - no last minute fluid reductions to lower my risk of an emergency c-section, no scheduled meetings with a social worker to make sure we can handle the stress of what is about to happen, no forms to sign in anticipation of our daughters admittance to the NICU, no fear that after all I do to bring her into the world she may not survive the upcoming surgery necessary for her to live. No, this time I will be prepared. I will be calm, under control, and relaxed. Rather than the needles and unfamiliar voices of the NICU staff, it will be my own arms and voice that first welcomes this little one into the world.



This picture was my first introduction to Antalya. Jason was allowed to go see her in the NICU before I was. He brought back the camera and I remembering him showing me on the camera screen this picture of our daughter. I thought she was so beautiful I couldn't hold back the tears. It will be incredible to see my child for the first time in 'real-life' rather than on the back of a camera.

10 comments:

The Millirons said...

Oh my goodness, what a relief ! I can imagine how happy you must feel. Congrats on such good news !

hiatt family said...

I am so glad to hear things are going so well. Congrats on the good news! Wishing you a happy pushing in the next couple of weeks!

Dehner Family said...

I'm so happy to hear your news. I love that picture of Antalya, she's so sweet, but I do see why you are excited to see your baby in person first. Good luck with your delivery!

Meridith said...

Wow Sunny! First of all I am so glad to hear that everything seems to be going well with the baby girl. It was so fun to catch up on the last few posts and hear all that's going on in your life. Congrats on the upcoming trip to London. That sounds like a wonderful experience.

Antalya is getting so big and I love all the beautiful pictures of her. It's so neat to hear what she's like too since I don't get to see her in person anymore.

Well, good luck with everything coming up and especially with the baby's delivery and birth.

Sonja said...

I can't wait to hear all about the delivery when Victoria arrives! I'm so glad for your doctor's happy pronouncement! Good luck these last few weeks! I'm be thinking about you!

The Munck Family said...

Love the baby name, and praying you have a very peaceful birth...can't believe it's almost here!

You look great in the family picture, you make a precious family!

Jan said...

I'm so happy an relieved that all the worries are gone!!!! I've been concerned for you and the baby, but haven't wanted to show it. I so wanted you to have a "calm" uncomplicated delivery this time. You all went through so much the last time around. Your blog made me cry as I remembered all the emotions and concerns at Antalya's birth!! Wish we could have known then what a darling, healthy little girl she'd become. . . So thankful she's so healthy (which wasn't something we took for granted.) And I'm so excited for you and Jason to have a more normal experience with Victorias's birth. . . Can hardly wait until she gets here!!!

Stuart and Sarah said...

Congrats Sunny on the clean bill of health!

Strawberry Girl said...

Beautiful little angel. I am glad to hear about the relief from worry (at least most of it I bet). :D

Nickie and Omai said...

Your remarks brought me to tears as I reflected on the difficulties you must of faced with your little girl. Being a mommy is the most remarkable thing isn't it? I'm excited to hear how things with your new little one. Good luck!